A whole sketchbook of mine is missing. One of my current books. The book with the entire sleeping jaguar 1/3 complete. Grr. I do not know how such a thing "up and walked away" but it has.
The pain from my arm is about a 8 on the 1-10 scale... yet I still am typing and trying to use it fairly normally because that is what I was advised to do until I see the hand specialist Wednesday morning. I'm really tired and cranky from this "my arm is on fire" feeling and can't wait for some relief. The only thing that temporarily helped was a special deep heat +active release when I got a massage last week. It only lasted until I woke up the next morning though... then this white hot pain was back.
If the "fix" for this is bandaging up my arm and wrapping it to my torso I will scream. I'll be on a lifting restriction from May -July and I can't afford (neither in sanity or art) the nonsense of stabilizing my shoulder and elbow that way. I'm also ridiculously right-handed. I can't do anything except brush my teeth sufficiently with my left hand... so I am a bit nervous about what experiment a specialist who has no interest in me the person may want to try.
Sorry this is so negative, but I have had a very crappy history with most doctors. They seriously tend to ignore my own instincts about my body even though history shows that if they listened to what I tell them they would make better diagnosis and get me to effective treatment sooner. (I was treated for 10 months like I had morning sickness when I actually had gall stones so large that I had my gall bladder removed. I said from day 1 that it was NOT morning sickness!)
So yeah... keep your fingers crossed that I am able to find that notebook. There are a few sketches for children's books AND that sleeping jaguar in it. I was hoping to finish the jaguar and have it listed on Etsy before my birthday at the end of the month... but I have to have it in order to be able to scan and list it! So frustrating!
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